Humble

I have been reading through James, which I have completely fallen in love with. I love how God can just completely bring me to the right book in the bible at the right time. I love the whole book of James but something that really has stood out to me is Chapter four. 

I love how He can take a situation that I am going through at the moment and find the right verse for me :)  

What is causing the quarrels and fights among you? Dont they come from evil desires at war within you?

Of course I am a girl, who wants marriage and kids and the whole nine yards. I'm praying and praying for God to bring the man whom I'm suppose to marry into my life. I dont wanna settle I dont want to go about this the wrong way. A wise person once told me that if you go looking for a husband and shakin' down trees you're going to end up with a baboon. She's very wise, because I dont want that at all. So this is when God showed me this verse in James Chapter one verse 5(not word for word) If you need wisdom ask our generous God and he will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking but when you ask him make sure your faith is in him and him alone.

That hit me and I finally realized it, that  you can ask for things all day long, but in order to receive those things you must put your faith in him. I haven't been doing that, sure I pray, I pray about a lot of things but I'm not laying my burdens at his feet. I must learn how to let go and let God take care of things that I cannot change. 

I also learning, to humble myself and to be broken in front of him.  God opposes the proud but favors the humble.

You see yourself in a mirror, you walk away and forget what you look like. But if you look carefully into the perfect law that sets you free and if you what it says and don't forget what you heard , but God will bless you for doing it. 

I need to not care about what other people see when they look at me, I need to not care what others thing of me. I need to be about HIS business!That HE made me, and he made me beautiful and He loves me, and everything else doesn't matter.