Everyone has hindrances, everyone has weaknesses that the enemy uses to attack you. My weaknesses happen to be self confidence or the lack of. I went to a new bible study tonight, just walking in the doors I could feel the enemy filling my head with untrue thoughts. Youre not pretty enough to be here... You aren't thin enough... No one likes you.... and out loud I spoke, Get behind me, Satan! I began praying to my Jesus, Lord please calm my heart, I am here for you I am here to worship your name. I could hear him saying, I have sent you here I want you in this place, I know that He wanted me to experience this. The enemy has been working hard to destroy my confidence, to make me feel unworthy to make me feel like I don't even deserve christian friends.
And for the record the people at the bible study were beyond friendly and welcoming, I think the enemy wanted me to think they wouldn't be. I think the enemy wanted me to think that they wouldn't like me and that would think that I didn't belong there. As worship began I just kept praying that the Lord would keep Satan out of my head that I could worship my Jesus and praise his name. It's a daily struggle sometimes to make myself not believe the lies that Satan tells me. I am worthy, I and wonderfully and beautifully made. God make me the way I am for a reason, and God doesn't make mistakes.
So this is a lesson for everyone, be aware that the enemy attacks our weaknesses, do not let them. Pray fervently and keep your eyes set on Him.
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